Channeling Bette Davis on a Saturday Night

Missing.

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I’ve heard this recording so many times, its almost a wonder that I still keep trying to reach you. If I actually heard your voice on the other end of the line, I would be quite startled.

When the thought hits me that I’d really like to talk to you, I pick up my phone and call without hesitation. I call you much more now than I did when your phone was in service. I expect that the result will be the same, which eliminates most of the anxiety I used to feel about calling you. I’m hoping to be startled one of these times. I really miss hearing you voice.

I’m scared of being able to one day relate too much to James Taylor’s “Fire and Rain.”

Just yesterday morning they let me know you were gone
…
I’ve seen fire and I’ve seen rain
I’ve seen sunny days that I thought would never end
I’ve seen lonely times when I could not find a friend
But I always thought that I’d see you again

I hope that you’re ok. I need to keep believing that I will see you again. I don’t want anyone to take that probability away from me.

I miss you.